Friday, July 14, 2006

All the best laid intentions....

seep right down the drain when you have children..

Sunday, I just didn't make it to the gym.
Monday - I made it and it almost killed me. The anemia is getting worse I think, I have an appt with the doctor for the 20th to try to get it in check. by the time I got home, I was really nauseous and light headed...took all I had to get through feeding my family and entertaining a family friend who came by to get some furniture we were giving away.
Tuesday - didn't make it to the gym. We have (had) a standing Tuesday night get together and traffic was just awful, so I didn't have time to do the gym, get the girls, pick up the sitter and get to the restraunt on time...
Wednesday - MUCH better day at the gym. I did the entire work out (45 Minutes).
Thursday - didn't make it. My daycare situation is deteriorating rapidly, and I had an interview with a fabulous woman who will be the girls' new daycare provider. She's a bit more expensive, but I think it will be worth it.
Friday - Rachel's been running a fever for 24 hours now. Up and down the thermometer...I've been lazy all day, I'll try to get it together to go, but it doesn't seem likely, I will pry my butt out of the house in the morning though.

Thursday, July 06, 2006

Johnie and I are finally talking again. It was a difficult weekend

with his feelings being hurt and me feeling like I had to defend myself, we just weren't communicating.

Life is much happier when we can talk without yelling at each other.

I did make it to the gym on Monday...Tuesday we were out in the heat and humidity for HOURS ... and then walked for miles (it seems) to view the national fireworks from the roof of the RDF at the Pentagon; so I didn't make it Tuesay. I should have gone yesterday, but I was just too damn tired. I have my things here at work with me, so that I can go right after work tonight.

We'll see how this goes. I added daycare to my gym membership to take the 'excuses' out of the equation...now I have absolutely NO excuse not to go. I kept my tanning package...as a reward for working out each day. I don't plan on getting as Day Glow as I got the last time I tanned but a nice base tan would be perfect.

Monday, July 03, 2006

With 40 pounds to lose...


here is a picture of me now. The best way to keep track of your progress is through pictures...so, here goes...a photo montage of where I'm re-starting...


First, my wedding day. Apr 17, 2006


And just so that I don't lose sight of the goal...and to prove it CAN be done... One of where I want to be again...


Oh Monday...the morning breaks with such enthusiasm...


and hope.

Isn't it great, how 'come Monday' you can do anything? Why do we wait until Monday to start a new diet, start a new exercise plan, start saving money? Why do we believe that Monday will be better than perhaps FRIDAY?

Well, today, Monday is my day...I'm committed to eating the way I'm supposed to eat as a gastric bypass post op. I'm commited to exercising to firm up this saggy body. At almost 40, gravity sucks!

Not intended on frightening anyone but perhaps myself, I'm posting a picture of where I started...back in March of 03, when I weighed 312 pounds. The shirt I'm wearing is a MENS 5X. I never wore anything but those damned stretchy leggins..thinking they looked OH so good and made me look smaller (smaller than what? a whale?)


My goal for this week is to achieve Ketosis (Ketosis (IPA pronunciation: [ki'tosɪs]) is a stage in metabolism occurring when the liver has been depleted of stored glycogen and switches to a chronic fasting mode during long periods of starvation.
During the chronic stage of starvation (after glycogen has run out), fat (triglycerol) is cleaved to give 3
fatty acid chains and 1 glycerol molecule in a process called lipolysis. Most of the body is able to utilize fatty acids as an alternative source of energy in a process where fatty acid chains are cleaved to form acetyl-CoA, which can then be fed into the Krebs Cycle. During this process a high concentration of glucagon is present in the serum and this inactivates glucose kinase switching the primary energy source of most cells from using glucose to fatty acids. At the same time, new glucose is synthesized in the liver from lactic acid, glucogenic amino acids, and glycerol, in a process called gluconeogenesis. This glucose is used exclusively by cells such as neurons and red blood cells.
Ketone bodies, from the breakdown of fatty acids to acetyl groups, are also produced during this fasting state, and are burned throughout the body. During the initial stages of starvation the brain does not burn ketones, since they are an important substrate for lipid synthesis in the brain. But after several days of starvation, the brain transitions to burning ketones in order to more directly utilize the energy from the fat stores that are being depended upon, and to reserve the glucose only for its absolute needs, thus slowing the depletion of the body's protein store in the muscles.
The brain retains a residual need for glucose, because ketones can only provide energy when used during
aerobic respiration in mitochondria. In the long thin neurons, much of the metabolically active cellular membrane must derive its energy from glucose via anaerobic respiration without the assistance of mitochondria.)

My diet will consist of water (enough to float a ship) diet green tea and protein...and lots of it, and vegetables. For now, no fruit and certainly no carbs or sugar in an attempt to rid my body of these toxins. I don't expect this to be easy..and I've given fair warning to my family.

Having never done this before, but needing a place to journal

vent and celebrate the joys in my life...here goes!

Mom of 3
Step mom of 5
Wife to 1 very patient man that loves me even if I am a dork sometimes.

Trying to Succeed