Monday therapy...

We talked about my relationship with my parents and how it 'should' have evolved. Seems as though it's time for me to 'grow up' and change MY relationship with them. At this stage in my life they should be on the same level as friends...not that I should disrespect them ... but they are no longer my "mommy and daddy" since I don't need them for day to day 'support'

I got another homework assignment.
It's on how to "forgive" more to release ME than absolve others from their wrong doings. For ME to let go.

Well, Fred didn't come back last night.

I did put food out for him since he wasn't around by bedtime. The bowl had been eaten from, but I'm not sure if it was him or another neighborhood stray. I'm almost positive the 'cat lady' down the street has him. She came up Sunday and asked if she could take him, she has 14 cats and he'd fit right in. Nosey people.

I'll keep the bowl out for a few days and see what happens. I did get a litterbox and litter for when/if he comes back.

Seems as though we've been adopted...

We got up Sunday morning and left for church..and found this BEAUTIFUL cat in our yard..Rachel called him and he came right over and let her pick him up. He looked hungry..so I gave him a can of tuna...and when we got back from church he was still in the lawn chair..apparently waiting for us to get home. He spent the day playing with the kids in the yard...all of the kids just LOVE him. He is the most beautiful cat, he's velvety gray, and very clean. He appears to have been someone's cat and he's either gotten loose or they put him out. he's very loving, and gets along well with us and the kids. After J left to take his kids home to their mom, I looked out the window and he was just sitting on the porch looking up at the window..like he was waiting. I fed him again ... I left him out for a bit for a potty break. When J got home, he brought him in and that's where he stayed for the night. He did really well. he pretty much stayed downstairs until he heard us moving around upstairs. he walked up the steps and started to meow...almost like he was telling us he needed to go outside.

J and I decided that we''re going to take him in. I'm stopping on the way home today to get him a litter box and food. He spent the night in the house last night, and is outside today...but as soon as we get him set up inside, I doubt he'll go out much. We're not really supposed to have fur bearing animals in the rental, but hell, we didn't want to be in this house next year anyhow.

Now, my only dilema is trying to get him to understand that the guinea pigs aren't snacks!

Great weekend with all the kids..

We've had the kids since Thursday night. I think all went well. No anger issues this weekend ... just a bit testy here and there (me) but for the most part doing okay.

J took the kids to the Fall Festival at the boys' school on Friday night, which left my girls and me having a easy night at home. It was really nice not having to go anywhere, or do anything.

Saturday we went to Graves Mountain Apple Harvest. GREAT day. We brought home a bushel of apples, the kids did the hay maze and hill, Tori rode a pony, all the kids went on the hay ride. We met my parents and neice there, my cousin Billy and his wife Laura were there with their pocket puppies...they were the cutest chihuahua's...one of them only 9 ounce! I think my parents are going to buy the other one (she was 20 ounces). I'd love to have one, but until we get out of this crappy rental house, that's not going to happen

Sunday we went to church and spent the day cleaning up and getting the kids ready to go back to their Mom's house. We hate Sundays! We found what we think is a cat someone has lost, he's beautiful...grey, very well groomed, not just any stray. We've fed him tuna and some milk..and the kids just love him. We're hoping he'll stick around as an outside cat, but we'll see. Again, we'd keep him in a heartbeat if we could.

Organizational Skills..

where do you learn them? How do you develop them?

The house is a wreck.
I have no idea what were eating until I'm forced to cook.
Laundry is a chore.

I've got to get this under control. My todo list is growing by leaps and bounds..but keeping track of it all is nearly impossible.

HELP!

Therapy - who knew it would be such work???

Started seeing a psychotherapist for my anger issues and much much more. I've seen Ray twice now, and been given my first assignment. I'm supposed to realize that I'm Okay. We'll see how that works out for me.

Long time no visiting...

Life has been busy since I was last here.. Lots to catch up on.
Our trip to Michigan in August was a huge fiasco. Let me back pedal for a bit. I've been working with my doctor to determine the best course of medication for me to take. My moods are very unstable - from happy, depressed, to raging.

I had just started Risperdal the week before we left. It wasn't working well at all ... so fast forward to our trip. The kids were unbelievable..they fought the entire time we were there. It's almost like they got stupid on the car ride there. They couldn't find socks, clothes, couldn't keep their hands to themselves. They were nasty to each other, never having a kind word to anyone. And I just lost it. I was cranky, grumpy and just plain old pissed off..and everyone knew it.

The last night we were there, I listened to J's mom scream about how awful me and my children were. I got up and started packing. I told J that I wasn't spending another night in that woman's house...We were supposed to leave Saturday morning, we left Friday morning instead.

We didn't tell the kids anything ... until they asked. When they asked we told them we left because we wanted an extra day with them at home before they were returned to their Mom's in MD.

We get back from Michigan and that's when the $hit hit the fan. J's sister emailed the ex-wife and told her how abusive we were, and that she was going to file a report with CPS. The ex-wife refused to allow us our weekend with the kids as the court order states. We filed a show-cause motion with the courts for her repeated violations of the court order.

CPS came to visit..and all but laughed walking out of our house. The report states that this was an ASSESSMENT..not an Investigation..and that there was no cause for an investigation - there was no abuse.

We've since had no contact with J's family in Michigan. J's mom has said that she doesn't even want J notified when she dies.

It's just a huge mess.